HellooOOOO .... Was I LOST ??

Hello folks .... Ehmmm where was i ? Lost ? hahahah no no please people , i'm not lost and don't say here is boring coz it'll continue to be boring until i get my thorough rest throughout this one VERY BUSY month . Well , today's 18 Feb and that means i've already started my New Teachers' Training Program (NTTP) in Yamaha KJ . The least you expected and the more it will happen . Why in the world did i get myself into a trap of teaching JMC classes ?? (Junior Music KIds) Hahahhha after the first 2 days when we've got some ideas of how is the JMC classes going to be conducted , boy my emotions went from MOTIVATED to DE-DE-DEMOTIVATED . Why? I don't know , i was feeling like this on Tuesday night :

a) Demotivated
b) Frustrated
c) Depressed
d) Curious
e) Anxious
f) STRESS

I can't be possibly sitting down here explaining every single point but i'll try my best . Demotivated because it's like a total 360 degree change of environment and learning session for me . i mean , try imagining attend public school where your key language is "passing SPM with good grades , consisting of maths ques and how does the body work etc etc" to something like what i'm learning everyday now is "do re mi fa so , so so so mi re do " , "Come with Me , my happy music friends , come with our music time begins" , you know ... singing kiddo songs!!! Gosh i'll never expect myself to be actually doing this !!! Playing and teaching KIDS to sing and clap and listen and enjoy my class!! hahahahahah how funny life is sometimes ...

Many people who know me will be bizzarely amazed at why do i choose to go through this course and decide to teach music eventhough i hate(D?) kids! I mean , but when this training started i'm actually trying to cultivate the love and interest for kids . I have NO CHOICE . Absolutely no , can you imagine if i'm teaching the kids on the piano to sing a song and some got it wrongly i'll turn to them and said "SHUT UP" , or "HOW DARE YOU" ? hahahaha it'll be hard to say but i must learn to control!!! That was the key thing i never missed out but the funny thing is , each time we have to observe real JMC class , i really enjoy the class . Like as if i want to be a child and learn from the teacher too , it's really fun la ... and i actually smile and laugh at those kids' behaviour instead of feeling irritated. hHhaahaha GOD YOU"RE WORKING!!!

Oh as for why i was absent for the past week ? Told you , my training started on D-VAlentine's Day , which means on the 14th Feb . No difference for me though , ain't got anyone to celebrate for me ... just was feeling odd and trying my best to adjust to a new environment . Can you believe i'm attending a school that's actually needing me to start from 10am to 5pm everyday and also staying back till 8pm-9pm to do class observations IN different Yamaha like in SS2 PJ and KJ ? Gosh ... i come back at 9+pm on mon , 5+pm on tues (aaaaa) , 8+pm on wed , 5+ pm on thurs , 8+pm on fri , and also go for class observations on Saturday ... 10-11 am , and 2-3pm in PJ and KJ . Pathetic timing we got . arrrghhhh ....

THat's only just going for the training program , not even including the amount of homework we have to do every single day! I mean if it's written homework i won't mind ... It's like we have to learn to play and sing those lyrical songs to teach the kids , then we have to practice like 20 other short pieces of solfege to teach the kids , minus the amount CD's we have to listen to to be able to catch up with the syllabus . No wonder all JMC teachers know the songs inside out . Anyway , just for a change i'm starting to enjoy the classes already . I wanna give praise and all glory to God for providing me with great great small issues that my intuition was right all this while .

Testimony : 1) On Monday morning after my dad fetched me to Kelana Jaya , i walked upstairs and saw a bunch of people waiting outside the studio and i went to the toilet . Walking out from the toilet , i was taken aback when i saw this teacher from Sonata (my music school) that i kind of knew her here and there before . I smiled and had a chat with her , and boom ! God provided me with a transport every morning to go KJ and also transport home if i go home early with her every evening . (she stays near my house) Oh yeah we're now considered quite close friends because she practically tells me about everything of herself . Hahahhaha and i also tend to share some personal stuffs with her though i used to don't really like her for barging into my class before my class ended with Mr Phua . Anyway , she's a very nice lady .
2) When Monday morning's session started , we all had some introductory session and found out that i had another class-mate who is staying in Kepong Bahru , so very near to my house too . When we were assigned partners to do class observations , she is now my partner and because she drives , she drives me home sometimes now unless circumstances don't allow . God is great rite ??
3) God answers prayers . On Tuesday night i prayed and prayed and read the bible asking why was i feeling what i wrote up there in points . I don't even know why i was so depressed on Tuesday night that i felt like crying . Anyway , God told me through the bible that I should praise Him , He wants me to praise Him for all His works and He'll give me strength . Praising was what I did but it wasn't easy in the hardest circumstances of life . Thursday morning woke up to a new day hoping things will get better and by 5 pm on thursday my mood was swinged from depressed to "HEY , I'M STARTING TO ENJOY JMC TRAINING NOW ..." Look how God works in us!!!

About the first testimony , i never bother to worry about my transportation problem even until the 13th of Feb . Yes my dad will fetch me if no one does it until he starts work on Thurs , but then again i somehow have this FAITH that God'll provide . And trully He did ! AMAZING MIRACULOUS JESUS! hehehehhe oh being yougest in this program , sometimes my course mates talks about me and questions more things about me , but my course trainer sometimes treats me like a baby! arrrghhhh ..... In conclusion , things are flowing as how God wants it to be i guess ... but i've laid my signature on the 2 yrs contract , so yup no turning back . Run the race is what i must say!