Intuition .. HMmm>??

Well .. today it's D-DAY hahahha .. it might mean Dooms Day as well ... but no it's not .. it's the all important Yamaha Asia Scholarhip Audition day ... which means all 6 of us (except 1) from Yamaha Academy came very early in the morning to be auditioned and interviewed to see if any of us are in the luck to be awarded the rm2000 .. sigh it's not much , but i really thought hard and agreed upon what my sis said about htis ,

"Aiyah , who can give you rm2000 just by playing a few songs!?"

So true .. not even 2 complete songs , i only managed to play 1 and one quarter pieces ... of my favourite pieces .. hahahaha today ..

Today i woke up super duper early (thanks to Ah Hem for training me as well past few days) to report myself in school at 9 am sharp ... coz according to them , my audition time is at 9 20am which means i'm the first person to kick things off . I arrived when Yamaha wasn't even filled with one single faimiliar face .... Not even Kak Ita was there yet .

So yeah ,i went upstairs to the comfortable cozy sofa we all used to hang out in front of the Festival Hall and chill out before Jess came .... so we both chatted and more and more people started coming ... by 9 20am Mun Wei and Ting shown up ..

By 9 40am Kak Ita was ready and all set up to start but one very important panel judge was not here yet . So i got really frustrated and we made all sorts of funny jokes about him and all ... Ting and gang even warmed their hands up on the grand piano sitting outside the hall! While i.. upon the request of Kak Ita went into the hall to test on the Stagea there .. which was all dusty and dirty but my fingers cleaned them up ! eeeueuu ...

So i just left my pen drive inside knowing i'm going to be the first to go in anyway ..

By 9 50am Mr err Hmm came .. and yeah i was shocked to see Loretta walked in together with Mr Err Hmm and Min Fuei ... Well yeah wasn't expecting her to be in there but hey .. she sometimes make me feel more comfortable too . But anwway , no time was wasted and i just barged into the hall with my head up high and fast-paced walk.

While walking to the front of the hall , i was hoping i could get a chance to introduce myself and all but seems like they were arleady very anxious to hear me play .. so Mr err Hmm just said good morning and asked me to play immediately without any introduction .

I played Windscape but it was pretty messy for a start . Some notes had slips and i only forgotten one very small part in the introduction .. otherwise it was fine . But i felt i could've done much better... the best thing is they listened to the whole piece without stopping it . Ayura turned out much better than expected . (My practice paid off because i can now play the introduction without looking at the electone metronome bar!) hahahha that's the most tricky part of the whole piece actually .. to come in exactly on the beat .

They warned me of stopping Ayura and so they did after i finished the 1st chorus . Too bad but yeah i think it's enough to show them what i've got .

There comes the interview session ... Mr Err Hmm asked me to introduce myself and tell them what im doing now . So i came out with this lame answer ,

"My name is Lily Tan. I'm 19 years old turning 20 this year . I'm currently studying in Yamaha Academy of Arts and MUsic and in my 3rd semester in March . "

*wanted to stop here but all 3 looked at me with this anticipated smile so i went on *

"And i'm also teaching in a few of the Yamaha outlets in KL"

*they smiled wryly .. as if they were waiting for me to say this!*

Then Mr Err Hmm asked

"Convince us on why we should give you the scholarship."

Again i gave a very stupid but realistic answer which i regret until now! It's all your temptation that got me into this!!!!

"Oh ok .. Convince.. hmm .. Well , if i ever get the scholarship award , i'll use the money to help my father ease his burden to pay off a little of my tuition fee , and also see if i can get something to record my own electone playing so that i can listen to myself and improve . You know it's pretty different when you actually sit back and listen to your own playing , i can actually listen to which areas i need to improve on rather than now where i play and can't hear myself exactly. I hope this will help me become a better Electone player"

They seemed satisfied and let me go .

All in all , everyone was asked the same question but i assumed more or less everyone answered this ,

"Well , i'm very passionate about music and i really love music a lot . And i want to gain experience from here and challenge myself to see where is my standard in terms of my music path and see what comes out of it . I will use it to pay tuition fees as well ."

I guess i'm the only naive one who answered it in a very super duper stupid way . Arrghh!!

And along the way .. thanks to YOU , who came out with the joke to use the rm2000 to buy a Yamaha electone , all of us started making funny jokes about how we should spend the "so little yet we want it" rm 2000 . Hahahhaha here it is

1) To buy a Yamaha Electone but some enhanced it by adding ;
Just buy the Stagea pedals ONLY
Use rm2000 to buy the Stagea but pay through installments of rm 2000 each year which
means i have to come back every year to audition and pay it off after 15 years! HAHHAHA

2) To buy a Grand Piano .. hahahah

3) To buy a very good headphone for myself to use (rm 200-300)

4) To buy a super canggih powerful speaker for my pc that costs (rm 1000-2000+) which i think will end up getting complaints from neighbour

5) To buy a synthesizer or keyboard for my production set at home

6) To buy plug-in sounds or sound card to enhance my production set at home (But nah)

5) To cover the cost of my Acer 17" monitor which i spent rm 538 for no reason!

6) Dad told me to use it to pay my car installments and i went "WHAT!?"

7) Sis suggested to use it the money to pump my car petrol! and again i went "WHAT!?"

8) Today dad asked me to use it for tuition fee if i ever get it but i still liked this idea the most,

9) Buy an mp3 player that can record my electone playing digitally and listen to it ... =)

But all in all , as a joke i liked the top few ideas but ideally i would take option no 9 .. it really amazes me because it is really true how i can learn just by recording my own playing from a third party point of view ... So thanks for the idea and YOU really made me all excited about it noW! Too bad i'll only get to know the results after Chinese New Year but .. nah will keep it all up till then .

But you know what .. the title of this post is actually about intuition and i noticed it has been very strong lately . I don't know , but i've had this since i was young . InTUITION.

Have you experienced like you had this very strong sense of feeling about something that hasn't happen but when it happened it is just exactly what you felt a moment ago . Like sixth sense but i won't call it sixth sense because i can't see the future . I often call it intuition . It has been working very actively lately ... these past 2 weeks . Since God knows when .. but then again , after what happened today .. i'm starting to question if that's prophesy from God or just purely my intuition that God put into me since young ?

Honestly i'm not lying .. These are few examples (most recent ones) of what happened that i can remember thought countless events took place ever since i had it .

1) In year 2005 when Bex accompanied me to Sepang to watch the Msian F1 GP , i had a very strong feeling in the morning that Ralf Schumacher would win the race though he did not start on pole that day . True enough he won it . (Too bad it only came in the morning so i couldn't predict it much earlier to win some competition or somethin!)

2) Many times on Sunday morning before i leave to church or before leaving to work in Ampang , i'll have this very strong feeling that my boss (LS) will be dropping by in the afternoon , so i better dress nicely . True enough she dropped by ...

3) Last Saturday i went for the "AMAZING CULTURE SHOCK" dinner and had this very strong feeling that C.H will be there that night so i should revert back to my house and take my pen drive to pass it to him at night . True enough he was there though i did not get a chance to pass it to him .

4) On Monday morning after i woke up and prayed for Janet's uni offer to SIT , i had this strong feeling throughout the whole afternoon in Low YAt that she won't go to Aus on Fri and will get the SIT 2+2 program offer ... which true enough , by 4+pm the uni called and she got the offer.

5) This morning while grooving to the music of the radio and waiting for 9 am sharp to get down from my car and go to school for my audition , suddenly this bizarre thought of Teck not showing up for the audition came to my mind and i shut it off by saying "NAH ... cannot be , he'll turn up and we'll both have a good fight over it" ... True enough , when Kak Ita came upstairs with the list of contestants , his name was crossed out and he did not show up for the audition . Friend told me it was God who told me . HAHhaahha i don't know whether to believe or not .


I still have one strong feeling about something but the result is not out yet .. so i can't tell if it's really going to happen or not . But i could feel it's from my inner heart . This is really bizarre but everytime i think of it , it really is true . So after becoming a Christian , i'm not sure how to view this . Whether it's a gift of the Holy Spirit from Him or just part of a human side of me . Having a very strong intuition . And when i start telling people about it after it happened , they'll go like

"So do you have a strong feeling if i'm going to this and that..."

"So do you have a strong feelings if this will be this and that"

I need to warn that this doesn't apply to EVERYTHING in my life or what ... it doesn't work for my exam results and all .. not even this scholarhips results .. most of the time it's just about something out of my life or about other people . So yeah .. It's funny but it really is true . Maybe i should ask God about this and see how i can glorify Him through it .

I usually won't tell anyone before it happened but only after it happend then i'll say it out . Coz i'm afraid if it's not true someone would say i'm too imaginative or won't believe me . But time and again since young i've not been proven wrong .

Strange , isn't it ?