Care for Me

After today's incident ... i now realize that there are a NUMBER of people in my life who cares a lot for me in my music path .... =) HALLELUJAH!

I must admit though , today wasn't a day i want to repeat .... woke up early to go to work for the all awaited day i didn't want to face for the past 2 years .... my students' JMC F.S.S exam... can you imagine , kids at the age of 6-7 have to take a test after 2 years of learning JMC ? YAMAHA! Gosh ..

And so i did all the preparations needed (I thought i did!) for the kids knowing that it's my first experience as a co-examiner and teacher ... i was extremely blur and allowed Joanne's class to go first coz her student was rushing to go somewhere else later . The FSS started at 10am and already knowing that Loretta is going to be the examiner this time , deep inside of me i felt a sense of relieve and comfort coz i know her well ...

The only setback is that she knows me sooo well that she is behaving like my mother lately! She scolds me often ... (if you are observant you'll notice me saying how much she scolds me ever since i knew her) and is STILL scolding me .. for little to big major problems . So at 11 30am Joanne's class was done and she left after wishing me a good luck . I entered the studio telling Loretta

Me : hi , it's my first time..
Lor : it's your first time , so!? You see you see.. this girl , first sentence arleady telling me this.
Me : OK OK then , Good morning Loretta! (in a sarcastic way)
Lor : No need no need ... now she's turning back ..

*Joanne heard and laughed before packing off*

The concert started immediately but when i heard my first kid sang i was shocked to hear her singing out of pitch! The whole thing went on , but i was shaking literally man! Nervous for the kids as well ! So ... the concert style was done but Loretta did give some words to the parents about how they should improve their singing and aim to strive for the better of the little little details in class .. (Indirectly commenting on how bad i taught them as a teacher!)

Next comes the individual checking where each kids go in one by one and teacher plays the piano to test them while Loretta sits at the side to evaluate them . I must tell you this is where time was eaten up the most because of my blurness and how much she scolded me each time after 1 student left ! It was like as if we were still in seminar and she was teaching me as well as scolding me as well as me testing the kids! POOR CHILDREN!

Finally when everyone was done , i asked Loretta

Me : Is this better now?
Lor : Hmm .. can still be better!
Me : Okie .. i needed some experience!!
Lor : I KNOW! but that doesn't mean you can simply do .. (can't remember the exact words)
Me : Ok ok... did i give you a high blood pressure?
Lor : YES!
Me : HAahahha .. i'm so sorry you have to be the scapegoat! It's my first time and the people outside were telling me that i'm so lucky to get you as my examiner knowing it's my first time! (mind you they told me this is only her 3rd time ever since this Yamaha exists)
Lor : I purposely vollunteered to come because i know it was going to be you...
Me : Oh my god! Really!? gosh ...
Lor : Ok better call Doris in ..
Me : Ok thanks bye ..

And so we were running late and Doris went in for her class's turn ... While I .. sat inside another studio figuring what to write in the comment sheet for the result slip ... for my students ... it was my first time writing these things as a teacher and co-examiner and it feels weird... And later i just thought about how i sucked inside just a few moments ago ... didn't help my students at all but only making them worse ... and how much my second mum scolded me... But overall i don't really feel the pinch of it because i know ... that everything has its firsts! (learnt it from Den!) and through these firsts that i grow and become a better person .

Ever since i came out to work , ever since i chose this path to major in music ... i learnt many lessons that no one can teach me .. only God and His almighty lessons with great people around me helping me hang through . I am glad that today's FSS was over and although it's no big deal but i now will strive to make every single JMC student of mine a good quality student . In the end , i learnt these most important lessons ;

1) Lorreta cares for me .. and that's why she came today .... even if she had to take a cab instead of driving!

2) Joanne also cares for me because i sms-ed her to tell her how bad i was and she apologized for not asking me to observe her FSS class first earlier .. Which wasn't her fault anyway!

3) I shouldn't give up easily on my job and studies .. no matter if it's teaching , performing , music production, or learning ... coz there's so many who cares for me i have no right to give up.

4) I feel blessed! I feel BLESSSED!

Oh before i forget .. i don't know why but suddenly i have a music production project to do now.. for someone outside and am charging them to earn some pocket money while building my own portfolio .. It's a recommendation by Melawati's admin staff and so happened she asked the right person! hahahhaa ... i didn't want to accept the job initially coz they want it by this Friday and it's quite a difficult job , plus the VCD couldn't be read by my pc earlier by seems like God wants me to do it coz i tried again last night and it was OK now.. reproducing minus one tracks from a VCD sing along kids show . So yeah , am doing The Wheels On The Bus , that kind of song .. but the arrangement is pretty cool .. in TECHNO ! hahahha .. plus another 2 songs .. i just finished 1 so i gotta figure out how to combine them all and make into a medley for people .

Whenever i thought of not doing it coz i am busy and won't be able to find time to do it , plus i don't have enough sources in my "mini home studio" ... there's this voice telling me

"Isn't this what you want to do later after you graduate!? Then why are you quitting when there's a job!? This is what you want to do!"

And so i started and now am hooked onto it .. once i got the groove .. hahha thank you LORD!

Oh one more thing .. today might be my last day working on a Sunday afternoon .. =) Siang went for an interview on Friday and seems like the people in LS are pretty pleased with him . Just that he wasn't prepared for an audition so he has to go back for the 2nd interview this Thurs to play some stuffs for them . The funny thing is when everyone thought that C.H introduced him into LS and even thought he interviewed him on Fri!Just because C.H said 1 sentence to him on Friday in LS... hahha WEIRD! C.H didn't even spoke a word about him going over ... neither did i and Siang.. I made the announcements to my students today happily .. hehehe and i hope by next Sunday Siang is able to start work . =)

PRAISE GOD! FREE ON SABBATH DAY SOON!!!