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Again!? Hahhahha no it's not my college term break .. we just entered into the 2nd week of classes so how can it be? It's the Yamaha music school term break .. so which means i have 6 days off from work since Sunday until this Friday ... which means a big,

YAY!!!!

It really feels great when you're not working ... i get to enjoy a full 1 week of classes in school without having to think about going to work and rush here and there ... ahahahha .. being a full time student is SO fun .... still have plenty of time to go home and watch tv drama , practice el and do homework . SO FUN! But it kind of also striked me feeling uneasy , coz i often forget i don't have to go to work thsi week ... and kept thinking i had to rush to Kajang on Tues .. ahahha!

Am listening to some really nice songs now... they make me feel "at Home" with God... He is Mighty to Save! AMEN! hahahaha ...

Had an eventful few days ... life seemed horrible to me last Friday and over the weekend .. but thank God for his mercies and faithfulness . He's never abandoned me. When i thought the world seemed meaningless and so sick of working and studying , (i cried on Fri thinking that i had to skip vocal ensemble to go to work in time and skip classes next Tues to go for the JMC Welcome Concert training which also happens to be my B-DAY!) ... ok it was also the hormone changes .. hahaha

I only could keep asking god "WHY@!?" and i told Him ,

"I"M so sick and tired of tearing myself in between work and studies ... i never like to skip clases to go to work and especially am tired of working! I can't even enjoy my student life, WHY!?"

Just when you think God is deaf , He's not . Sat night i shared my burdens with sister and bro in law and they prayed for me. Sun morning pastor preached just exactly what God wants me to hear. It was about

"Hanging on to the Potter's Wheel"

Basically from that sermon i understood why i must go through this (NOT exactly but generally) situation now.. and why i end up doing a job which i never would think of it 2 years ago . God put me to teach kids when i hated children .. and if He didn't i would not know that kids aren't THAT irritating and they could amaze you in their abilitis sometimes (am referring to my JMC kids who seemed to always surprise me by their musicality)...

And if i didn't go through working and studying i won't learn to appreciate studying as much as i am now , and won't work as hard as i am now ... and won't know the value of money and won't know i am SO passionate for music that am willing to suffer for it as long as i'm happy doing it. God is great .

I told Wei that she needed to hear this sermon as well coz she's been struggling to understand and find the passion she once used to have for being a performer .... so tmr shall tell her about it.

God is faithful huh?