For some bezerk reason i can't put a title on this post. ARrghh

Anyway .. am very very super sleepy and tired. After not having enough sleep , i tortured myself some more last night by chatting online! ARrrghh .. thanks to you la poh yee... ahahha.. we both got hooked and couldn't wake up early for church today. We only reached much later (i was quite late!) when she's suppose to be in church at 9 15am for bible study with me accompanying her. What the...

I had a good day today .. though plans were very much disrupted throughout the whole weekend. Started on Saturday evening where i actually planned to come home from work , go shopping in Carrefour to buy my JMC kids' presents and come back to practice impro for Tues' Musicianship Skills exam. Thanks to all the fickle mindedness and poor memory , i spent a long time shopping and finally bought everything and came home around 12am. What the?

I went online and got hooked .. so by the time i called it a day it was 2+am ... so today only had like 6 hours of sleep ... went to church , had a short lunch with Teck .. and then proceeded to Melawati for my jmc kids' graduation concert. It was FINALLY OVER!!! Hahhaha but i must thank God His grace was upon me and He really answered my prayer! The concert could be considered successful eh!

To my surprise , they didn't breakdown ... they played pretty well , in fact if they played like today for their FSS test 2 weeks ago they would'nt have causd me the short heart attack. Arrgggh.. but it was pretty frustrating , in the midst of all these .. i had to do all the work by myself .. host the concert , adjust the mic , set the electone registrations , blah blah ... then not to mention wearing their graduation robes for them as well as giving out the certs .. the only thing i did not do was setting up the stage and layout , and taking care of the CD player. So thanks a lot .. but hey , it was really ONE LEG KICK! Thank God had an experience with Joanne before this .. and now i learnt how to do this by myslef. REALY THANK YOU!

The weird thing is ... i actually felt so proud of the kids when they were up on stage singing and playing ... i looked from below and went ,

"Aww ... these are my students ... "

Then the joke of the century was , when my Guest performer Nicholle who is suppose to perform a piano duet with me ... i told her to bring her book today so that i can refer to the chords , and guess what she didn't bring! So GOOD! Teacher Lily had to play by ear and poor memory ... and guess what , half the chords were wrongly harmonized because i guessed them ! ARRGHHH!!!! How embarrasing .. .

Being a JMC teacher seriously trains you to rise up to any occasion and think quickly during times of emergency like these.

After the much awaited concert was over, we had loads of photograph session ... and gave away their presents. They were so happy with the Transformers ! Hahahah i myself was pretty tempted to open the robots up actually yst night .. how can the boys not like them??

By 2 45 pm the concert was over and i packed and left Melawati around 2 55pm when it was still raining like cats and dogs. Thanks to the heavy rain that caused a flood in Selayang , i took 1 whole HOUR to reach home! From the usual 15 minutes drive , i reached home only at 4pm! CRAZY ... on a Sunday evening!?

Then my initial plan to START practising impro again got disrupted when Poh Yee asked me out for dinner. So we did .. but i managed to practice 1 hour before she came .. so thank goodness. Anyway was home around 8pm and the practice continued to be DISRUPTED again .. ahahha coz it was time for the British Formula 1 GP ... hahhaha yeah wanted to see how Felipe will spoil the Lewis Hamilton British party ... but guess who spoilt it ? Kimi instead. Dumbo ..

But it was really good fun watching Felipe who had an engine stall in the starting grid , catching and overtaking cars like a lighting from 20th until 7th place just after 20 laps! Crazy man he... he was driving like a true Ferrari driver ... really up to speed , overtaking the cars like mad fella ... But too bad by the end of the race he could only managed a 5th place , still racing Kubica for 4th but it was just too difficult to overtake the BMW with 10 laps remaining ... Getting near is one story , overtaking the car in front is another story.

But all in all i enjoyed watching how Kimi spoilt the British party as well .... Kimi has seriously risen up to be who is was suppose to be now. And poor Massa who was showing some strong performances before this now has got some negative comments coming under his way. Things like

Kimi Vs Massa - who exactly is faster ?

Irritates me.... after reading it.. so what? Both have different driving styles and both have different personalities... but are driving identical cars .. working in the same team. Come on la , face the fact.. no matter who is faster both are doing an equally good job in the team. Both had mistakes as well ... but overall i felt that life is not perfect. If you can have two Michael Schumachers in a Ferrari team then life will be so much tougher. So is the same duel and hype going on around the Mclaren camp.

Alonso Vs Hamilton

Same thing...besides the fact that i really salute the 22 year old child prodigy Lewis Hamilton. For his age , doing what he's doing now... i can only say HATS OFF .

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Wow i've not talked about F1 for such a long time in my blog . ahahhaha most of the things i write is about music. How life changes. But then ... being so freaking worried for my exam is also pointless. I learnt today in church about really practicing what you preach. Pastor Tryphena said things like ,

"Songs like I'm So Secure in You ..sing it only when you mean it. OTherwise think twice whether you will do it or not. "

True. If i could sing so loudly about how God can help me , how i feel so secure in His presence then why am i so worried about my exam ? (Just because i am doing last minute preparation!) IT's my fault for being complacent .but So what ? God is here and is willing to help me. I will still do what is needed , practice and prepare when it is necessary. Then what Poh Yee said today about me being

"you're never satisfied of yourself!"

Is true ... but then again it's in my blood .. to be a perfectionist. That's why i have problems coping with failures. And yeah .. I need to be more chill again.. otherwise life will be shorter for me. And oh there's also a part where pastor preached which caught my attention ,

"Some people do not understand that Jesus' salvation is FREE! Don't have to work your way up to get it! Some people work so hard in life to get this and get that , but it is actually FREE from JESUS!"

I want YOU to know that , YOU seriously do not have to work so hard to get things in life. There's a place for you to get it for free and it's Jesus. YES we need to do what is called by God .. study , work hard , do whatever research , be a good citizen , be a good person , save money , yada yada .. but true Jesus , doors are opened wider.

Ok am getting very tired and sleepy. It's a nice night .. no one's online to chat with me.. ahhaha and i can just relax and really sink deep into my thoughts about these 2 days. With Damien Rice's music ... it's even more emotional.