ThiNgS aRe WoRkiNg OUt... PrAyers AnSweRed!

I've been praying for the past few days .. for something very nice and also for something not so nice to do .. ahahhahaha

1) Praying for our semester's concert to run smoothly and it will flow without a major disaster and flop ...

2) Praying for someone to come and replace Guan for our instrumental ensemble next sem

Call me hypocrite , wicked , cruel , cold-hearted , mean or whatever. But i'm just praying that God's hands will work on this Academy and things won't go SO WRONG before i leave. Or even for the coming semesters .. please! People .. Yamaha is dying if things don't work out.

Then of course ... prayers are answered because we've been having a pretty productive Instrumental class these 2 days. At least the hours we spent were solidly working and from today's class we FINALLY have something to show the audience on 21st July! Arrgrhhh ... why not just make things much easier by planning things ahead Guan?

I have to say .. he finally brought himself together and pulled up his utter most guts and apologize to us yesterday. Which i think was probably hardest thing for him to do in his whole of 20+ life. I could see it.

AAhhh .. another of Damien Rice's brilliant song! Rootless Trees. But the chorus is really vulgar . Haahahha coincidently this relates to err hmm Guan .. hahaahha (you might want to guess what vulgar word was used for the chorus then)

Anyway , yeah ... after going round the bush for almost half and hour he finally apologize .. but it was really down to earth. I thought the crap he said earlier was really CRAP especially the

"We are all professional musicians you know , trained people so we must be professional"

Ahhh tell me how professional can you get ... and then he also went ,

"I've not used that word for more than 1o times in my whole life , i think"

Right ...

So yeah ... i know it's bad to really point someone's mistakes out but i do know of course he is young , ruthless ,sometimes helpful but turned out giving others the wrong impression .. he needs to be given a chance to prove himself .. but sometimes life is harsh , and life is just that. Opportunities only come that few and you need to grab it. Life is cruel honestly ... only through Jesus you can have eternity and blessings but still .. God has His extent of mercy as well . I personally felt we've also given him a benefit of doubt many times ... he just needs to know how to grab them and prove us wrong .

Honestly , i don't know if everyone by being happy and chirpy in his class is real because i personally think its pretty difficult to accept him and now we all have to start respecting him all over again from scratch . Which is of course , NOT EASY.

But i now also feel a little guilty for praying for a replacement tutor for next semester's instrumental class when i know this guy has MUCH MORE to offer in Academy. A culture shock needs to be given time to absorb ... but not for this semester. Just too bad. And yeah , am now going to commit this whole thing into God's hands . He knows best ... so i'll just keep praying for the best , and God will know what to do.

I don't know why am i so sleepy .. these few days. It's not that i torture myself in school everyday goign for never ending classes or at work. Just that the staying up late and waking up 8 hours later the next morning doesn't really work well. Tomorrow will need to get my exam pieces DONE and presentable... am going to take my sweet time practising in Sonata ... sigh .. gotta pay .. but it's ok , if paying a little can earn me higher grades it's no harm. You guys have fun practising in school k.