Hello 2009 - Greater Him ; Lesser us

As the year 2008 closed , i wanted to just take some time out to blog about my thoughts upon the WONDERFUL year i had and my thoughts upon the coming new year. But unfortunately after Vineyeard's Watchnight service and by the time i jam my way home it was almost 1 am and i was too tired to write anything ... and UNFORTUNATELY the next day (yesterday) i woke up feeling OK until i was practising the JAC solfege accompaniment scores and all the notes i saw were starting to look like stars and i couldn't focus properly. My 1st Jan was spent on the bed sleeping , in the toilet bowl vommiting and in the clinic visiting the doctor. How ironic - since i have been going round telling people how much i looked forward to welcome 2009. And this is what happened!? Sigh.. maybe it's God's first sign of telling me to always be prepared for the unexpected in teh coming year ... things might NOT just turn out the way i want .

Nevertheless , i am still able to thank God i was healed after a couple of hours sleep and at night i still was able to get some things done ... Yeah bible says Thank GOD IN everything ... =)

Anyway... There was a testimony session in church the other night , which was opened to everyone who wants to share with the members about their 2008 .. but i was too shy to go up and say anything , although i had TONNES to testify in 2008. I shall pen it down here. So it all began in the beginning of 2008 , when i got 2 friends to church .... incidently whether or not it was meant to be , but it was all God's divine plan... Teck finally accepted my invitation to church , spent 2007's christmas with me in church and then got saved by January 2008 although he didn't quite comprehend and understood the gospel deeply. (For more info please visit
http://teckyeong.blogspot.com)

Then after Teck received Christ and flew to England , the rest that happened to him spiritually there was history ... and i'm still looking forward to his coming back later this month to tell me all his stories and testimonies there ... After Teck , there was Poh Yee. Absurdly i started knowing her through msn and we started chatting .. out of the blue ABSURDLY i invited her to play badminton with me (WHICH I DON"T EVEN EXERCISE!) and we started having one of two badminton sessions and she subsequently found out i couldn't play and that's how we eventually got c loser ... and i started inviting her to church and she accepted Christ couple of months later.. and by March , both of us were

BAPTIZED !!!

That like the third thing to thank God for ... 2 souls saved... then as months passed by , April... May.. here came the BIG day i had been working for since January ... which later became the highlight of my whole 2008. Kim called it "my zaman kegemilangan" ahahah but i think it's more of God's zaman kegemilangan actually.. So it was the first round of the Electone Festival 2008.. and i got through winning the first place ... my first taste of victory as an electone player. Then came June , National Finals... Won 1st prize and got a trip to represent Malaysia to Jakarta, Indon for the Asia Electone Festival. MY DREAM CAME TRUE !

I mean , OUR dream came true .... But it was just the beginning of many more lessons i learnt throughout 2008 which made my spiritual maturity rise higher . The following 2 months after the National Finals were very very tough for me .... personally ... due to some major issues regarding my competition but nevertheless it was all a very good experience ... a good journey that i'd never trade anything for it in return. I wanna thank God for all his mercy and grace that until today although i looked back .. it might not have been the kind of obstacle i wanted it to happened , but i think it was HIS intention to let it happen so that we were able to come back from Jakarta proudly.

Throughout the whole process of the competition , it was i think the first time i can really declare what FAITH is all about and what hanging onto Jesus is really like .. withouht being able to see the future , predict what's going to happen ... i felt like a little ant because things around me were uncontrollable and i just felt so helpless except surrendering onto Him only. And when you do, you'll be amazed at the results. Until now, i am still amazed .... so that is one more story i want to thank God for. He gave me His word earlier before i left to Jakarta promising me victory if I HUNG ONTO HIM surrendering my all to Him without relying on my own strength , and i am glad i did and whether or not YOU believe in HIM i still can't deny that GOD was with us throughout the whole process ... and you know it. So thank You lord.

After coming back from Jakarta , things went on pretty normal.. no not really. Had quite an emotional time readjusting myself back to life ... because all of a sudden i had nothing to do and i suddenly had so much free time .. and it was pretty hard trying to UNstick myself from all the attention i got for the past few months .... But i thank God for friends around me ... Mun wei and poh yee had been around with me pulling me through ALL THE TIME .. so thank you girls.

Then after some time i found out i had too much free time and since i couldn't apply to any universities at the moment because all intakes were closed by the time i was back from Jakarta... i was left with practically nothing to do until 2009... and so God knew my intentions and granted my desires... i had the little intention to resume my jazz piano lessons and try out from another different teacher whom EVERYONE practically i know in KL had been recommending ... so came Mun Wei's birthday in Oct and it all just fell into place slowly .. like little puzzle pieces to fit in..

And so by mid October i got myself to learn under Cher and after his tour back from Unit Asia's concert i am now under the tutelage of 2 very very great teachers and i must must must must thank JESUS for them! And how can i not mention God's grace and mercy upon me ... financially... helping this little poor lazy girl out all the time.... imagine having superstar teachers but only charging me the amount i am able to pay without pinching my pockets. One more to thank god for.

So these were what major incidents that happened throughout my 2008 and i must must must anyhow whatever how thank God for HIS ever faithfulness ... although at times i had been a disappointment , losing faith in between but yet He has been faithful to me. On 31st in church while they revealed the new theme for 2009 ... it just shook me in the heart and i think it is very appropriate for me to welcome and embrace the new year.

GREATER HIM ; LESSER US

I need just that. Sometimes i've been so caught up with my own life that during christmas i felt no christmas mood at all until the day itself and how appropriate since the christmas theme was NO VACANCY ... whether our hearts were filled with the daily business of life until when Jesus knocked our doors wel'l put up this NO VACANCY sign ... which i think i've been guilty of until christmas day. And so the new theme has been a great reminder for myself if i ever want to know what God has in store for me.

Although i have some plans to execute in 2009 , but i can only plan and the rest i still need Him to carry them out for me. So although i had a great 2008 but my only main concern now is my studies and that topic makes me so emo all the time which frustrates me ... but then again , i told God on 31st night that no matter whatever happens and what the decision is going to be now, i'll just GO WHEREVER YOU WANT ME TO GO ... i am really tired of thinking and deciding and waiting ... and i still need to pray about that. So i had a great 2008 , but 2009 is going to be even better. (it's not a maybe it is a WILL BE) =)