More Than Life ; Jesus' Blood NEVER Fails Me...

My entry says it all .. today as i sit here in my room , my thoughts and heart is with God , the author and perfector of my faith . Yes , i know some of you might hate what i'm gonna write or even skip this entry but as a matter of fact , this is what life is all about . Honestly , for me at least.

This song says "I love You , More Than Life ..." and it repeats until the bridge that sounds "How can it be? That You are the one , on the cross..." Actually I wanna post this as a continuety to my previous post that seeks an answer regarding the emptiness in my heart . I said that probably the emptiness in my heart was because of the loose string between me and Jesus , and that's why I'm feeling my spiritual bowl has been decreasing lately . And true enough , that was the answer .

It all began when i had to lead the worship in youth for last Sat's special occasion organized by our youth to have a combined meeting with Hosanna Praise Subang youth called "GRYP" (a rather weird name i thought). Prior to the saturday I felt really bad , really empty and I thought to myself "gosh , it's here again ... how can the leader lead if she's down?" I was chattin with my guitarist on the night before and that conversation actually made me thought that I would always feel better and my spiritual bowl will be filled again after youth on saturday . It happens all the time , whenever i don't feel like leading or my fire is low , it'll be restored after leading worship in church .

Back to Friday night , before i slept i was reminded that I need to return the United Live CD to my friend the next day . Therefore i took the chance to watch the VCD Hillsong recorded and trully God's power cannot be compared to anything else . Even just the simple recording touched my heart so much that I don't remember tearing and crying so loud and long to Him before . To some of u there might be nothing special in the vcd , but to me , it reminded me once again the passion of the young people worshipping God , doing so many things including sacrificing their time and daily lives just to fulfill the will of God . They interviewed people like Darlene Zchech , Rueben Morgan (boy how i adore this guy!) , and also Joel Houston , Marty Sampson , and their youth pastor ..

Ok the songs they sang was touching , and i hear them almost everynight before i sleep , but then watching it visually and hearing them pouring out their passion and hearts were just too awesome . This thought that came to my mind was that there were nothing different between us and those Aussies over there . Being they were eqquiped with cooler instruments and groups of choir plus hundred thousands of worshippers worshipping the same God in one achord . That just made me realised that the power of God is the same everywhere and as long as we have the passion and heart for Him , it'll all be according to His will ... I felt as though at that time God was comforting me and mending the loose string back to a tighter one again ...

Oh crap , blogger had some problems and disrupted my post . Now my second half of this post that was completed is erased! Let's see if i can remember ...

Back to sat's session , it was awesome to see God's miraculous power working through those youth who attended the service . He brought back the joy of serving Him in music ministry , reminded me where I belong , and eventually brought the joy of seeing people's hearts touched by Him during worship ... at least i was overjoyed when the people rejoiced and worship Him in spirit and in truth ... Being the worship leader in youth before my friend came along these few weeks , I sometimes feel so dried up that leading worship was a routine for me . It became so easy sometimes i doubt my heart if i was worshipping Him .

But anyway I wanna thank God for his might and power that swept across the church that evening when I see lives touched .... It was a pity I had to rush off that evening before the service was over , but even though that evening I felt nothing when the pastor prayed for me , I knew deep down that's because God already handled me FIRST the night before ... Then again , before that skipping sunday services made things worse . But lately I've been back attending sunday services and man , it really feels good to be back on sundays! It really makes a lot of difference and you'll know it when u experience it . Pastor Brian's message on sat was straight to the point and "terasa" to some of us , but he touched on "spiritual dicipline" which I find it true .

I'm not here to boast or what , but I just wanna say that no matter how boring life is , how miserable times are , how pathetic people around us can be , I know for sure being close to Jesus will make the little difference that's all that matters . That's why I said , the answer to my little emptiness was Him and only He is the way , the truth and the life ... Just like this bridge says ;

"Jesus' Blood NEVER Fails Me"
(adapted from an unknown song)