TERRIBLY F R U S T R A T I N G!!!

You know what ........ life seemed usual just only less than 15 minutes ago until i received a miss call from my NTTP course mate . I returned her call and thought it'll be good news ... which she's suppose to meet me to lend me her original Electone books from Japan but somehow she wanted to ask me a question which i totally don't have an idea for . Anyway the question doesn't matter but after the phone call i got terrible irritated and frustrated by our conversation!!

Wheaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! WHY AM I STILL STUCK DOING NOTHING AT HOME!!!!???

Ok here's the conversation transcript .

Eng Hui : Hello
Me : Hello Eng Hui , Lily here .
Eng Hui : Ya lily , i want to ask if you know what's the content of JAC book 2 course ?
Me : huh what ? Errm i definitely don't have any idea coz we didn't learn anything about
JAC courses .... why ?
E.H : Oh coz later at 8 15pm i have a class with this student who's learning JAC bk 2 but the
teacher that passed her to me said she's under extra individual lesson and also an
electone based student . So i just don't know what to teach her coz i don't know what
they learn in JAC .
Me : Huh ... ok .... wow at least you're teaching already , while i'm still catching flies at home!
E.H : Hey , how come ... have you seen your boss ?
Me : Ya went to meet LS already but she wants me to meet KK and another teacher to get
all details and until today i have no news yet . And according to them i gotta go for
some more internal training before really starting work . How frustrating!!
E.H : Aiyah must be this KK la ... what internal training ?? Gosh ... LS hired him to be her
key teacher and all teachers are under him . So before teaching they must some sort
go through his so-called test or something ...
Me : Is it? Aiyah what crap ... i don't care as long as i'm doing something , rather than now
just sitting and waiting ! I called Sally to check again and she said "What to do, have to
wait coz now no intake and Kajang center haven't call ..." At least you are better ,
so busy teaching and i heard everyone else doesn't have any J courses to teach .
E.H : Really ? i heard Leice went to meet her boss already but i don't know what's next .
But Torng Jia is already teaching in JB . She has no J courses students yet but she's
already got 10 individual students for her , all beginners la but she has 10 .
Me : Wow ! That's good! She has 10 better than nothing ...
E.H : Ya she said the center there can't arrange a proper timing for her to open group class
and studio have some facility problem or something like that ....
Me : Wow good la ... aiyoh what am i still doing at home ...
E.H : Hey i also don't have much students yet ... Here all the famous teachers around ,
those who want to learn individually all wants Kaori to teach (Japanese- i mean PURE
breed from Japan- teacher who stays here in KL and teaches in Klang center and
Yamaha Academy , as well as known as a VERY NICE lady) , and all the other famous
teachers ... so i'm left with nothing .
Me : Aiyoh then you better go finish up your piano lessons quick and teach piano so you can
earn more!
E.H : hahahha yeah la .... i'm trying now...! Hey i gtg already , starting class soon . See ya
soon ok .
Me : Ok , you take care . Bye
E.H : Bye


The question now is ... WHAT AM I STILL DOING AT HOME!???!!! can Sally call me and let me know the details soon!!! Oh gosh i hate waiting ! I'm glad the fact i've passed the interview
with LS and she's quite OK with me . THe only thing i'm feeling miserable is here look ....
Everyone's already back to work and REAL life and i'm still here spending honeymoon days at home!!! I'm so happy for Torng Jia and Eng Hui on the other hand , but otherwise i'm thoroughly frustrated for myself ! I hate feeling sorry for myself but i really don't think i have anymore patience !
GOD!!! HELP!!! MOVE ME!!!!

I know there must be a purpose things are happening like that ... the only reason i can rationalise is that God wants me to learn my driving real stable first before travelling and start working .... because my car comes only around Thurs/ Fri and so i still some practises before flapping my wings to fly out .... and second reason is ... I dunno , God are you giving me a GOOD REST before really working all flat-out soon ??? I NEED YOU LORD !!! TOUCH ME and ANSWER ME !!! I've never felt so lifeless before !! Now not doing anything is even more lifeless than too busy doing the same thing everyday ! I know i complain too much but i really really need to know the reason!

Phew ... Know what , i'm so glad this post is still around! hahahaha .. my pc just hanged last night when i almost finished typing this post . I heard some funny timer sound (not the first time) from the CPU and so i quickly clicked "Save as Draft" which i thought it wasn't in time .. but thank GOD i made it! hahahha now it's still here so folks , enjoy it . Wanted to end with a prayer but i've already prayed last night .. anyways , I'm collecting my car tomorrow ! Phone call ? neh Sally haven't call me yet .. =(