Walk of Life

Yo ... i've been VERY EXTREMELY free these pass few days since Sunday after my end of semester concert ... the concert went well .. nothing major happened except with small mishaps here and there but i thank God He gave me the strength to teach all my classes in the afternoon and still had the stamina to last throughout the whole night . It was great fun.... but i hope we could better themes and music in the next coming semester concerts !

ANyway ... due to my extreme freedom .. i haven't been spending so much time hanging out chatting online for the past few months ever since school started ! I spent like almost 6 hours online Monday night covering my whole 1 semester's online time ! ahahahaha .... been taking a rest from practising ..which is NO GOOD .. coz if this carries on i'm going to have to abandon my "HAVE TO DO" list for this hols .

The point of having this post is actually to express some stuffs ... i've been going round searching and reading people's friendster and browsing through my friends' photos ... Even my primary school close friends and gosh ..they look so cool now... i mean ... so different from how i knew them when we were kids ! hhahaha... i miss them ... left a message and today i got the sms from another one of them . Great news ... then i went on to browse my CBN friends ....

Came to one conclusion ;

People change as time change ... and it's time to move on ... though how hard we try to reunite ourselves but then again... like what my ex-teacher used to say "in 10 years time when u reunite you'd find you ahve so much to talk again when now you might have nothing to talk about" .

I saw photos of py , yan yan , and all ... and then this reflection and thought keep coming to me that i can't help but feel sad ... coz it's like we're parted from school and there's nothing incommon with us anymore .. we get out of school we meet different ppl , we enter different colleges and unis ...then we mix with different people and live in new environments ... then we slowly change to become how our circumstances allow us to be . Then when i start pondering bout my life ... i realise ... hey ... many things changed in me too ...

I got sucked into the Yamaha world that really gave me this comfort and shaping me as who i am today .. though Jesus is still the one behind all these . I meet new friends when i start college , i meet new people and learn how to carry myself when i start working , i learn to be an adult when i teach young children and shape them musically , i learn to make big decisions in life when i'm being forced into the situation , i learn how to take failures when i start failing my YAmaha electone exams (ahahha!) , i learn how to cope with stress and time management when i have to work and study , i learn what's important and what's not .. i learn how to FOCUS ON GOD when things around me almost drew me away from Him easily ...

Thats internally ... but appearance wise .. ahhhahah you can always count me out on this . I realised i've not change a single bit since i was young ! I mean , if you've seen me before 5 years ago you could still recognize me on the street now ... trust me... And also because i'm very loyal to my hairstyle ... i haven't change my short boyish hair since form 5 . So ....yup... i think the only difference is i've been very thin now ... too thin already .. lost 3 kg since i started college . I often joked to friends that after my last semester i'll end up like a skeleton head . Hahhaha

Then when i think of friends ... it's weird how God place people in your life when the right time comes ... i don't know . IT's funny ... how He placed REALLY GOOD FRIENDS in my life . I'm super thankful that throughout my walk with Him and since i could ever distinguish what are good friends i dare to confess that i was never left without a good friend . When i was in primary i had Yee Leng and Ee Sheng , and Suzane ... then in high school i enjoyed life most when Janet , Becky , Michelle Oh and the rest came into my life through CF ! , then life after SPM was even more interesting ... Oh of course through all of this God sent Zk ... still my best ever buddy ...

Went to Sedaya .. had no real friends but there was Suu Fei whom i could constantly trust .. (see?? I still remember you!) , then at work ... i always have Eng Hui ... Torng Jia (though you're in JB but i miss the naughty things we do in seminars that made Loretta mad!) ... Aaah .. met Eng Hui yesterday ... missed her so much . I haven't been praying for her lately and really felt bad that life hasn't been so good for her when i stopped contacting her and encouraging her bout God and all ... I should continue to minister to her ... and will never give up . And of course GraCE!!! How can i not mention bout her ?

Grace is trully amazing .... an angel sent to me ! hahahah ... haven't kept in touch with Eng lately God sent Grace ... coz i'm so busy with school and all ... and that's when i got really close to Grace.. i really miss her ... now she's in Ipoh having fun eating ! ARrgrhhh.... miss you dude! You're so independent , matured , and good that i feel at times you had to deal with things way too hard for ur age! (though she's 3 yrs older!) I'm blessed to be able to know you ...

And now that i spend most of my time in Academy , i'm thankful God brought in Eden and Hui Ting to my class! They're my best mates in school man... my natural sisters! Hahahha (it was a joke that turned out to be our names) Especially Eden .... i believe it was all planned by God ... to bring me in this semester ... into Dip 1 straight awawy .. i could never imagine if i was still stuck in Foundation .. eeeeuuuu... thanks C.H ... thanks Phua ... =)

Then again ... i only have one best friend that is Zk ... i guess in my life i've never had anyone who understands me more than he does ... He could read me inside out and vice versa ... We spent loads of happy moments together ... one friend whom i could blurt my heart out but then it's funny that he would not be the one i'd look for when i'm super down .. coz men don't know how to comfort you ? I guess so .... it's funny that a lot of times he doesn't quite understand what i'm doing in life but yet knows how i feel about it . He at times scare me because of his behaviour and makes me super worried about his walk with God . Lately ... we argue a lot .. for small stupid reasons ... that's not worth it ... We have misunderstandings ... i felt he did not pay enuf attention to listen to me .. then again i wonder where's God in all of these .. coz we used to put God in the center of our friendship that everything worked out really well ... We'd talk on hours on the phone everyday ... see each other everyday until if we don't meet for a day i'd feel extremely uncomfortable ... (no we're not having a relationshiP!)

He's this very intelligent guy that when he gets really focused on God he really is a great man of God ... so sometimes when i am worried bout his walk with God he always gave me this impression that he's alright and fine . But in fact i realise now it's not . I shouldn't take it for granted anymore ... because eventhough he speaks with wisdom and knowledge i shouldn't behave as if he knows it all and is in focus with God ... i should do what a friend does and stop being scared of what he'll say of me . (i'm scared when he scolds me actually!)

And i think that's what makes us argue a lot lately ... his birthday is coming and i don't know what to get for him because when it's my birthdays he usually buy me funny presents i don't really know what to do with them ... so sometimes eden and i felt like as if we're more like a best friend to them rather than they being our best friends . But then again ... sometimes you can't expect things to happen your way in life . That's the best part of life . Unpredictability .

There you have it ... friends ... they can and can't impact your life . Aren't people interesting ? They are the good and the bad . They are as if the nucleous of life but in fact we're all just sheeps of the Shepard up there . He creates us all and thus knows what's best for us . Ciao

P:S : Was just wondering why i kept thinking of all these when it's hols? Teck said i think too much and should relax ... but i guess i'm sophisticated!? WHATEVER!