Yoo HOO!!!

Hi ya ... today's 6th December 2004 ... which means it's already pass 2nd Dec 2004 .. which means the time for the end of Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) Examination has come! Yay ... wow , talking about HISTORY ... now my SPM is HISTORY! hahaahha ... i went to JessKan's blog , and she was talking bout how sweet freedom seems to be ... i'll never miss those bad old days about struggling through exams , freaking out bout exams last year and needing "your" help to send me bible verses sms's to calm me down . THanks a bunch!

Well .. nothing much .. after SPM on thurs , immediately i went home to play rest and because i can't control myself ... my electone was too tempting! ahahahah felt it calling me .. so didn't had my precious sleep and just play all the way till evening .... then on fri morning straight away went to the militarry camp for the National Service medical checkup .. and boy , this is GOOD NEWS!!

Thanks to the doctors who seem to be linient enough , they both said "You DON"T have to go for NS" . YA HOO!!! What a relief!!! That was what i was worrying and trying hard for .... and it all was because of Na Na's kind and efficient help! Thanks ya!! I promise to buy you a meal! I dont know why , but somehow i guess God gave me the wisdom on TUes morning that "hmm what if i can be exempted from NS coz of my gastric?"
I think that's from God ... everyone asked me how come i suddenly thought of that when they all knew i was quite ready for NS ... i didn't actually recall , but i guess i THOUGHT i was ready until i cried non-stop just to notice i will miss my electone DARN LOT for that 3 months absent from home! Wheaaaaaaa.................!!!!

The trip paid off well , thanks to my dad for the encouraging support who had to take a day off from work to be my driver ... but though we submitted my medical form to the NS dept and they asked me to call back on the 10/11th to confirm , Na Na said i'm already 100% DON"T HAVE TO GO .... so , i trust in you! And also my sis who kept on wanting me to join the Christmas Youth Skit / MUsical .... OK , as a step of faith ... i finally decided to join in the dance on Sat's youth practice .. and i even told everyone basically i don't have to go .. talking bout faith , i really Don't have it .... I kept praying again and again for His faith to be in me , but somehow i find it really hard ... so instead of praying , i also wanted to do it by action .... i don't want to disappoint God ...

Okie , then saturday turned out to be a busy day ... went to Careffoure Alamanda Putrajaya , then head to church for musical practice ... just realise my muscles are aching now coz i didn't exercise for such a long time! Arrrghhh ... then at night headed off the P Ying's house for gathering and steam boat ... though i didn't eat much , but i thoroughly enjoyed the fellowship .. i told some of them that i don't have to eat , talking so much already makes me full! ahhahaha ...
Aww , one reason why i'll always make an effort to go for these gatherings , coz i'll always come home feeling good ... feeling happy after a good session of fellowship with them ... how i'm gonna miss my secondary school mates! I guess our topic for the night really was a little different ..

We talked about our future plans , what college we;re heading to ... what we plan to do , what our ambitions are , who's going tour ... who's got the priviledge to study overseas ... who's doing what ... and we ended up laughing at some real darndest things our mates did we never thought of .... and being the only person who's not doing a mainstream subject , i really am afraid how i'm gonna mix and mingle with them again in the future .... i'd be so sucked into the music industry , and the rest will be just studying something more like a "professional course" it seems , according to my dad ... sigh i hope that day won't come that we have nothing to talk because of our different paths ....

Then yesterday morning dreaded myself to church with Yan ... (aww how i'm gonna miss Canaan when i go back to Vineyard!!) and she provided me free transport .. ehehhe talking bout after 17 , we're starting to discuss about "who's fetching who" ... then had a great time in ICOM for their Open Day .. had 2 free CD's comprising songs composed by their students ... whoo , talented bunch of maniacs there la!! Now come to think of it, i find myself having a little of fear going to college .. though i was soo excited of what's ahead of me , dreaming all my secondary school years to do just music all my life , now i'm afraid of the competition and challenge i'll face in ICOM .... it's indeed a place where musically talented people come from too ... if Berklee , i think i'll FAINT .

I duno , all i know is i'll just have to pray and ask for God's guidance ... i shouldn't backoff so easily ... my sister once said "critism is a champion's breakfast" . And now i want to put it "Challenge is a champion's breakfast" . So what if people get to study in Germany ? So what if people win the International Electone Concours? So what if people get to study in Berklee College of Music ? So what if somebody's father said "money is not a problem" ? As long as i know i have the I AM WHO I AM in me and that's all that matters! ICOM seems like a great college , but i have to stop being a chicken and come out to the world to face the challenge if i want to be who God wants me to be . So i shall register for the January intake as soon as i confirm from the NS dept .. and school's awaiting me again! Arrghhhhh ...