ThEre's FREEDOM iN the name of JeSus

I'm really hungry now. At 2 33am..i once again have those refuse to sleep nights just because i had my 2 hours weekly Tues nap this afternoon. And knowing tomorrow i don't have to wake up early. I get to spend more time here online doing nothing else but chatting , catching up with the latest music updates online and most of all ... this is also a good time to catch up with God. Jm came to greet me just now on the msn and both of us were talking about the great concert we enjoyed over on saturday evening by PlanetShakers.

I mean it wasn't ALL GREAT GREAT that it left me on HIGH like how i did watching a jazz band or so..but most of all the great was because of the passion i see in the band and also the worship session that the more than 600 young people enjoyed that night. Yes i have to admit that i wasn't a great fan of PlanetShakers ever since my youth days because i personally thought their music was becoming more TOO enthusiastically commercialized and ROCKer that i have not been updated with their albums ever since Rain Down.

Upon hearing this news from Mun Wei though , i never hesitate of going for hteir concert because i knew deep down inside my soul needed something like this. I have not been for any worship concert ever since the Reuben Morgan's tour couple of years back. Although the place was packed with people and i squeezed my way through the crowd just to worship the Lord i never had anything else to complain. As usual , the crowd went WILD screaming praising Jesus and JUMPING non stop whenever the band jumps on stage , and everyone went bezerk wanting for more of the PlanetShakers. And at some point i used to always wonder if the hearts of these young people are for REAL .. whether for JEsus or for the Music.

But then again , i knew deep down inside i only had one thing in mind which is to Worship the Lord and therefore my heart wasn't really at the band but most of all towards the Lord's presence. More so after going for this concert , i came home the next day facing certain spiritual issues myself and needing it to be cast onto the Lord was a pretty challenging to do. I do'nt know if it was the devil speaking inside my head trying to pull me away from Him or what .. especially in this time when EF is drawing near and things could get pretty rough with my preparation of Cypher.

And so i spoke to God...and it's just amazing how God can bring people back to His presence as long as we're willing to be touched by Him. If you close doors behind you then He is harder to penetrate you. I read somewhere about a young person who was at the PS concert as well on Sat night , and while reading the article my heartaches terribly. The things written there are not 100% false , as to some Christians who are not careful will just be cheering the band and music on but not Jesus. They cheer because the crowd cheer. They jump because Henry Seeley jumps. They clap because everyone clapped. They scream because the stage was with a band of talented pro musicians who knew how to draw the people to interact with and worship the Lord.

But i must say though , it's disappointing to see some young people who doesn't really take chances to appreciate God's presence in the powerful worship session but yet choose to think soooo much about the pros and cons of the whole situation. My heartaches. The Lord only requires us to surrender our hearts to Him wholly and just do this SIMPLE thing.

LOVE HIM

That's not so hard isn't it ? The band plays , the band sings , the band leads the music. YOu ? Stand down there , lift your hands up , open up your heart , and sing your heart out to Him up there. That's all He requires.

Tonight Mun Wei told me she's very tired and prefers to go NBT next Wed instead. After hearing that i got really disappointed and pissed because the whole world knows i'm a jazz fan and looks forward to every NBT night because of the good music cum good environment there. YET i try REALLY hard not to be pissed and control my temper because i know i can't be soooo selfish as to demand her to go tomorrow night. She is a full time student , in her last sem , with a MAJOR LTCL exam coming real soon , her final perf exam in June with an issue she needs to address real soon thanks to a teacher who has only 1 favourite word in her dictionary (FFK or CANCEL class) , and not mentioning the never ending amount of part time job she has outside. Teaching full day on Sat , and ACCOMPANYING the whole world who's taking exams.

While me? Only miserably teaching the 3 days , and occupying myself with Cypher for the rest of the week. That's how i pass my days... i don't know why but it still sounds BUSY ENOUGH to abandon any other things i have in mind... so while i'm such a lifeless person i can't be demanding my friend who's already very nice enough to want to accompany me to NBT to still tire herself and look like a zombie tomorrow night there. I was pissed , i hate changes , but more so i hate my attitude more than anything else. I began to be more calm listening to some worship songs throughout and i must say FREE did calm my anger down ... But i must definitely learn SELF CONTROL ... and stop being so demanding.

The Lord just told me LIFE IS EXCITING .. so why sulk over it?

Writing so much .. only comes to one conclusion. Whenever i get sulky over minor and major issues of life , no matter how macro or micro they are ... listening to Gospel music and dwelling in the lyrics of the songs as well as thinking about the LORD helps ease EVERY SINGLE thing. That's how POWERFUL jesus is. HE HEALS. HE SAVES . HE THRILLS. HE LOVES. HE REDEEMS. HE COMFORTS. HE SPEAKS. HE IS IN CONTROL.HE FREES.

So once again i must must must be firm this time. I've commited to NOT fret so much and be an ENCOURAGER and not a discourager. It's a promise i've made and i shall not want to break it. I hate coping with minor things like this but i must learn to be flexible as well. Anyway , yes i have more things to look forward to.

SOUNDCARD IS COMING TOMORROW !

OK LET'S HOPE I GET TO PRACTICE CYPHER TOMORROW

PS : The song Free is soooo catchy i refuse to let go of it. THERE'S FREEDOM IN THE NAME OF JESUS.