Mixed Feelings

I've been in this empty "posting" blog page where i'm suppose to write my entry for the last 20-30 minutes i think but it was still empty until now .
Dunno why , probably because i was searching through my mind to think of what to write and found nothing ... until i realised i have tonnes to write about my great 1 week break during the festive season to Malacca and Penang last week . THen again , come to think of it i have nothing to pen down but just a couple of words . Great time off from the hectic life of KL (not that my life is super hectic! hahah) and enjoyed myself babysitting and shopping in Penang . Had a few regrets though , not being able to enjoy myself fully in Malacca due to just a cup of "teh o ais limau" the night before which ended myself with Gastric Flu , having severe gastric followed by fever and vomitting like crap on the way to the History of M'sia state. Well of course , thank God for His healing power that i'm well enough the next day to visit my grandma back in Kuala Kubu Bahru . And of course another regret is the way my attitude of stinginess is when it comes to luxury , or things that aren't really necessary ... i mean cheap and good pirated DVD's of course .. with Penang being the land that most pirated DVD's are released , it's no wonder people buy like mad up there coz it's only rm4 for 1 piece of DVD . I regretted of course not buying the drama series Numb3rs , and Lost (found that Lost is quite a good show though i thought it was a stupid plot before watching it) . It's only rm4 for each disk which will probably cost me less than rm 30 for the whole complete season of each series! What was i thinking about ?? Eric ko-ko needed like rm 70-80 to get a complete season of Desperate Housewives here in KL!!! gosh ... and i spent like rm100 on clothes and sandals instead later in Gurney Plaza . Crap .

Then i came home on Sunday morning , feeling lazy and relaxed since i don't have to work until Tues ... i was looking for a companion to go for a movie with but with luck not on my side , every friend of mine at that moment seemed to have vanished into the woods! Zhan Kin was busy preparing for exams coming soon , Janet was too tired to move her a** coz of JEn's wedding the night before , and "London Lady" was still in JB when i sms-ed her . The rest , of course are busy with college exams that i didn't even bother to tempt them . Hahahhha ... thank God though for Astro Starsport that aired the A1 GP live and i ended up watching it and filling the rest of the afternoon watching the sole DVD of Keiko Matsui in Concert i bought in penang . Great buy and i trully didn't regret that ! Great mixture of Downtempo music blended with light jazz . Reminds me of Yoshihiro Andoh's music though .

That of course , was my "few words" about my 1 week break . Hahahahha ooopss sorry didn't mean it . Summarised 7 days up wasn't that bad in two paragraphs rite .. hahahaha Oh and before i forget , the trip to Gurney Plaza in Penang also earned me so much valueble knowledge on Apple's music pc software called Garage Band where they showed me a demo on it and taught me how to use it . Now that i learnt about it , i realised that the functions are just the same as my Electone but of course the EL can do much more if being relinquish fully its complexity . Why must the Japanese engineers think in such a complex way!!!????

Then of course while i was looking for a topic write in this post , my dear friend came online . She tagged herself as "I miss london". Surprised to click on her and saw it was London Lady . Just had a short but variable conversation . I think when you put 2 of us together , we could just talk about anything and never stop until time or God tells us to! I'm amazed at the speed we move on from topic A-Z ... aahhahaha We talked about a lot of things , but one particular part striked me and i would like to extract it out to write about it .

We were talking about Electones and she encouraged me to join Electone Festival (which is the Yamaha electone/organ competition) . Since i last joined it in 2002 , my heart's always been burning with that desire and hunger to achieve more in playing the electone by entering the EF . Of course not just getting the fame after winning , i mean who remembers ur name when u win it . It's the learning experience , the one step further that others won't be able to learn just be taking lessons like i do now . Our conversation goes like this

JeSusLOVES'liLy says:
since small i've been going for competition like mad fella
I miss london says:
then go la next year
I miss london says:
it's pop (music genre)
JeSusLOVES'liLy says:
yeah but sadly my "beloved" teacher is not the kind of ambitious EF person ...
JeSusLOVES'liLy says:
but nobody teach me!
JeSusLOVES'liLy says:
u know i entered like in 2000 and 2002 but wasn't even close to winning the regional final

I miss london says:
but he has an ambitious friend called pok.

That last sentence was the best part . Which is totally true ... no denial . And in fact i've been silently looking forward to learning from him - Pok . I don't know why but i don't feel any good hinch about talking further than this so i shall not elaborate more on Pok . For those who understands that good for u this is a good one , but for those who don't then i'm sorry .... i don't think you'd be interested anyway . Hahahahha

Her statement just got me thinking again .... maybe i really should go for it , stop being a chicken under my wings and really take out my sword and armour to battle again . To enter EF , ofcourse i'd take part in the pop category coz i'm no friend to Classical music ... which is good coz next year is the pop category year . Maybe i should stop belittling myself and use the courage God gave every one of us to serve Him . Is this part of serving Him ?? I don't know ,,, some one help ...

Anyway , i can't afford to fill my mind with this topic because my fundamental 5 exam is on nov 28th which is 2 weeks from now . After getting the date from KJ , i sat down and realised my nerves started settling into my adrenaline and it was pumping hard ! In other words , i'm starting to get scared ... Of what , i don't know . After all the preparation ... i shouldn't be . Just have faith and gambateh la! What's worse .. i don't even dare to think of it . Whatever , i'm so sleepy now i better call it a day coz tmr i'll have a great day enjoying catch up with Janet and Bex!

Auf wiedersehn !